How Does weed Affect BPD?
I know that marijuana is being used for many medicinal reasons and is legal in California for this purpose. I recently found out that I have BPD (I am 46), and I have been using marijuana off and on for most of my adult life.
When I stopped using it for nine months I found myself becoming agitated and I craved the soothing effect of the high, so I caved in and started using again. That was a few years ago and I have been using continually ever since. I use a vaporizer which eliminates the carcinogens, but I am finding that my memory is not as good as it used to be and I don’t like the lethargic/psychotic feelings at times.
I don’t know what else to do when I get agitated or angry and weed helps calm and soothe my intense emotions – at least I think it does (magical thinking?). I figure that all meds have side effects, and marijuana has its share too. But sometimes I wonder if it doesn’t make my already fragile identity even more disconnected.
Does anyone here have any experience with marijuana and BPD – pros or cons? If so, please share them. Thanks!