I drove him to the airport. Just before he got out of the car he looked at me with those puppy dog sincere eyes and said, “I love you. I give you my heart for safe keeping in the hope you won’t break it. Please give me yours”. I remember those words verbatim. So, hearts were exchanged and I was left in tears as he made his way through the international gates.
Within 48 hours he was in another woman’s bed and then proceeded to move in with this long-time family friend for the duration. As I distraughtly queried this arrangement he calmly explained “Well, I needed some place to stay”. Further questions revealed his sorrowful dilemma, and I quote “Every night before I get into bed with her, I mentally apologise to you”.
Well, that’s okay then. Oh yeah, he thinks he may have forgotten to tell me monogamy has always been a problem for him; go figure.
It’s taken a long time, a lot of soul searching and counselling for me to forgive me my naivety and stupidity. My only consolation is that he was good, in fact very, very very very good at his deceptions. My still unanswered question is ‘why?’. Why go to so much trouble to bed this not-wealthy, inexperienced old girl? My counsellor nut-shelled it for me; a narcissist is a narcissist is a narcissist. It’s in their DNA.
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